Onthemountaintop, thanks very much for your response. I'll be home in a little over 1 hour and am making a concentrated effort to take propper steps. "Nothing happening" definatley means sex but I don't hug much anymore either which is crazy because I love to embrace my wife. I hugged her when I arrived home last night and again this morning.
I'm glad to hear that a 180 can mean changing my habits to do the things I need to do in relation to my W. I'm also VERY glad to know I don't have to pretend to be happy. She knows I'm not. I can toughen up and avoid tears which is required with the kids present anyway. But you are telling me it's OK to TELL her how I feel? That I'm very upset? She knows...I don't want to be too graphic but I'm sure she hears me "loose my lunch" the past 2 mornings.
I did tell her I'll do anything possible to address my faults and I think quitting my 2nd job is the first step. I asked if we could attend church together as a family once my weekend are free and she agreed with a "yes". I hope this isn't just a front until we get through my sons confirmation next month. In fact, she mentioned that we need to stay together through confirmation for my son. I guess I'll just take positive steps and pray she accepts me.
I live in the same house and sleep in the same bed so staying close will happen by default (thank goodness). I'll avoid discussing the R and continue to improve myself while being very involved with my kids.
I'm making these statements for the benefit of everyone offering advice. I love this woman and treat as such. Looks like I'll need to buy sleeping pills on the way home.
Again, I know these issues have been discussed many times. In my current state of despiration and emotional distress I appreciate the interaction as it has helped me get through the day more than I can say. Thank you!
