I've been busy trying to organise the wedding (this July!) and still cant find a dress..eek! BF is being his usual wonderful devoted self. So wierd. He turned to me last night and said, "I'm so in love with you". Friday night we were driving through a sunny evening to a comedy show and he took my hand and said "I love you so much, everything is perfect".. such a turnaround. He used to drive me about alot when we were apart, all those meals out, back to our hometown etc. I always found the hardest part not being able to reach out and touch him or him hold my hand as couple often do when driving.
I found out recently he had seen Helen twice at work but not mentioned it as to him it was nothing, so I was ok about it. We hadnt seen her together since last July but she was in the pub we went to Friday night. There was no reason for it, but I 'knew' she'd be there and he said he did too. Intuition is a funny thing huh?
I dont think she is over him, she was stood on the over side of the room but she kept looking over as him and me, when she could! I could see over his shoulder. She was being very vivacious and OTT and got very drunk and her friends were clearly tiring of her, got her water, tried to drag her away. She came back later and stood close to our table, again looking sideways at us, but bf kept his back to her all night and didnt want to speak to her, out of respect for me he said. I sort of felt a bit sorry for her. They had an 8 month R and yet he blanked her. She must have felt humiliated.
The bad thing was, she was more attractive in the flesh than her photos looked and that threw me a bit. She was also wearing a top I own and love!! She had nice long dark hair and was taller and curvier than me.
Of course I said to him, I can see why you chose HER instead of coming back to me that summer.. he just said no, he wasnt thinking straight and just hated himself around that time. He also told me by Christmas time he began to worry that I might move away from Cornwall.. how crazy! We were barely in contact then. He said it is crazy, as looking back its obvious he knew even then he wanted to be with me.. but it was another 5 months until he finished with her.
I had an urge to go speak to her, I guess I didnt like that she was so unsettled by us being there and watching us all evening. Just a sad blip in our R I guess, but bf was VERY reassuring and loving today as he knew I was a bit sad about it.
Cornwall is just too small a place !
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
