She knows that you still want to work on m and also how u feel about her but it sound weak and needy to repeat it. The i love yous must also stop.
At this point event though she probably knows u well, u must keep her guessing that maybe u wont be there forever and maybe she should work on the m. But this is going to take time and patience.
As for the OM. This is my current thread about Does going dark drive the WAW away.
Check that thread and u will get some insight from some of the heavy hitters on this site.
As i mentioned, i have made mistakes DBing. Dont make the same ones i have. We are human and often are controlled by our emotions but these are not normal times and we must be more discilined than ususal if this is to work.
Even if it goes against how we normally handle situations. I am like you in many ways and am a straight shooter. What u see is what u get and i have lived my life that way.
That is why it seems counterproductive to follow DB but they are the experts in this and yes, when i follow it , it keeps her wondering if i am managing without her and she doesn`t like it much
Stay strong
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