Agreed. Poet, hang in there. This is just the business portion, but I would add that you cannot figure out the motivation of your STBX. It is what it is and you'll have to deal with it at some point - in your own mind. For now, stay focused on what you can do - the business aspect and get it done. As the others have said, life is good on the other side. You may not yet see that, but it gets much much better when you let go of the fear and finish the paperwork. When you no longer have to open your email and find more things that hurt. Because once the paperwork is done, you no longer will have to let your STBX in where they can hurt you. Even now you can severely limit the amount of pain, but you have to focus on the paperwork and stop focusing on looking for a reason that doesn't exist. Nobody could tell you "why". Take one step at a time and take time to imagine yourself happy without STBX. Make a conscious effort to do at least twice a day - you'll be glad you did
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
