OK - let's try something different. Yeah, a lot of posts about what STBX is doing and saying. The whole "let's not sign the papers" - I don't have to solve that yet.
She has the boys this weekend, so - whatever else is going on, I need to give some attention myself. GAL.
So, went to see some buddies' band play Friday night. Took a yoga class yesterday morning, and went back this morning. I don't know why this suddenly appealed to me, but I've never sweat so much in my life. After being a cubicle dweller for so long, it's about time to focus on some strength and flexibility.
Cleaned up the apartment and turned the keys in. Did a bunch of yardwork at the house. Supposed to have lunch with a friend today, if he ever calls back.
And, although last night was a little lonely, I did get some LAUNDRY done. Heh. And some work too. Ah, I've got to work a bit today as well.
Anyway. Right now, instead of focusing on the decisions that need to be made, I've realizing that my focus really needs to be everything ELSE. Because, once I feel a little more rooted in everything else, I'll have some better perspective on the relationship. Not that I expect us to reconcile at all. But I'm wondering if I want to just go ahead and push it forward. Yeah, it's true that I love her still, but again I don't trust her, and I think I've really lost some respect for her.
Triplet mom (if anyone rememebers) stopped by on a walk so our kids could play the other night. Back in the neighorhood...
