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[flowmom]

Ugh H4L, I'm sorry that your H is not stepping up to his responsibilities. Your S really shouldn't be around other children if he has a fever...your taking him to the church nursery isn't an acceptable solution. And of course it's not great for him to be dragged around period.

I was upset last week when H dragged my feverish S off to his apartment instead of letting him stay here. I have to admit though, that we moms tend to be more protective when our children are sick than when fathers are.

It's shocking the physical toll that shattering takes on our bodies. It seems so unfair that we have to deal with the emotional toll while not being able to eat, sleep, and while battling illness. I really liked the chapter on shattering in the abandonment book.

Taking care of yourself is going to be a minute by minute struggle for a while. For me self care means monitoring my thoughts and thought stopping, distracting myself by activities and light DVDs, getting outside and being physically active, trying to eat and sleep properly, chanting, talking with friends, etc. It's amazing how changing environments can help with PMA sometimes...even when one feels that nothing can take away the pain.

And I have to say that my children really have helped me. They are very high maintenance and need a lot of attention. Focusing on the moments with them does help to draw me away from my thoughts. It also helps me to feel better about myself when I am there for them. Outdoor outings help especially - damming a little creek, picking dandelions, digging, walking, bike riding, etc. It's so hard to be a mom when you're feeling like this, but just try to do it for 15 minutes at a time.

(((H4L)))