Going to the event went well. I was nervous but did have my PMA on by the time we got there. I was afraid I might be fighting tears the whole evening but I was okay. I did have a couple moments but did fine.
I definitely felt like we were visitors there rather than a part of it all as we had been in the past, but that was okay. It was probably better that way at this point anyway. The important thing was that he made a big step to invite us back into his world again on some level. The kids were so happy because it was a direct answer to one of their bedtime prayers.
YET believe it or not (okay, believe it, he is MLC), I am seeing once again some "replay" type behaviors I haven't seen for months, especially in regards to trying to look younger again. Some of the teenage clothes have come out again after quite awhile and he has done a couple of things I haven't seen for six months or so. I was quite thrown and unfortunately have let it bother me and bring me down.
It is strange to have such what feels like huge progress only to see him jump back so far again. Fortunately, personality-wise he still feels the way he has been as of late. Sigh. This ride is exhausting.
