You're having a boy? That's great. I love baby boys.
Fighting/contacting him = keeping him in your life -- YES. I realized this myself when I saw that I was "happier and calmer" when my WH and I were in contact. (This was a month ago or so, actually a month and a half. . . or 2 mos, i can't keep track.) But now I am 20x happier and calmer now that we have extremely limited contact. (And my dip-downs happen when we do contact outside of those very limited boundaries!)
I know that you still need to process what just recently happened with your WH, so let me ask-- did he ever intend to go to MC to try to repair the marriage? Or was it some other reason?
I really think all you can do is GAL. Sure, have DB goals if you want, but I don't right now. We've got our babies to focus on now, really. The situation will change after the birth. It's doubtful that it will before. See what happens.
Of course, what do I know?
I do have to recommend Christina Aguilera's "Fighter", though, while we're on the topic of songs. I have new respect for her, ha ha!
TTYL.
me, 30 WH, 29 D born June 2010 M: July 2001 Bomb/S: 1/14/10 Done with it all.
