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i agree with Gatsby...let him know that you are strong, and will be well and peaceful... but let him know you are all those things now! Make him think and believe you are 100% strong enough to do it alone! Its not because you want him to think you dont need him, its because you want him to see you as a strong human being... a parent!

i wrote a letter to H a few days ago, and i was not so nice, actually direct may be more like it. Some things I wrote in it were... I, as a mother have every right to protect me child and give him the life that i feel he deserves. that i have very high expectations for my son and the people who come into his life, especially his father, and you need to man up and step up to the plate. the child is not a toy or a car, that you can walk in and out on. you can treat me like crap, but you decide now if you want to participate in his life as a father or not. you can not and will not ever destroy his faith and trust in people, like you did me.

i was a bit more harsh than you are in your letter, that is just me, but i think you need to let him know that you are not going to sit and take it either. you would think with just weeks left, the H's would WAKE UP and start acting like fathers.

BE STRONG! and do what feels right...

I am hoping it all works for you...

dont you feel like every step and everything you do could be the one thing to trigger an emotion inside him and wake him up.