Thanks flowmom, hugs to you too. I am doing much better for the most part, just the last couple of hours have been bad. And I no longer have the urges to call or text him. I actually hate seeing him, you can gut the rejection and hatred coming from him with a butter knife. My IC noticed a pattern in my really bad days, those are the days I see my H.
He will be moving out of the house in 2 weeks and I will be moving in. I'm looking forward to actually only see him once every 2 weeks. I know that is the only way I'll ever have that chance of having him miss me. The only bad thing about it, is won't be able to see my changes. However, I know they are no longer for him, but for me anyway.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10