I had a fun day with my D9 bday party, it was nice to see her having fun with her friends.

I'm feeling down now thinking of my H. He is at the Nascar race as we speak, and the fact that I was supposed to be there with him is really putting a damper on my mood. Also the friends that he is with have been posting pics and fun posts on FB about their weekend there so far. Of course there are no pics of my H. I don't know for sure if he took OW, but my gut is telling me he did. What gets me, is how any of our friends could just accept her into their lifes like that. I was in Mexico with these friends back in September.

I still have hope something will change and my H will decide work on our M. However, after going over D papers with him on Thursday, he said he would call L on Fri to set up appt this week to re-write the papers and have me sign them and file. I know I need to move on as if he will never come back but it's so hard to do. Even though I know that is also the only way he will ever come back.

Together 16 years
Married 12 years
Me 36
H 34
D9 & S6
Separated 12/3/09
Confirmed A 1/25/10
Exposed A 1/26/10
H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10