Hey Gardener, sorry to hear you are still having some bad days, but we all do and will. Like you said, the roller coaster continues, but the the hills and valleys get smaller and smaller. Time will help us there.
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Where - where? - did she go? What happened to her?
This question you come back to often, and you simply must realize that it is a question without an answer. You will continue to cycle through this and other feelings until you let this question go.
I know, it is painfully hard. Maybe you can find a trigger or word trigger that when this creeps in you push it out of your mind with acceptance that you will not be able to answer it, so you will not let it affect you anymore.
I feel it's at the root of a lot of these bad feelings that reside and come from the past
You can do this, and take the focus off X and return to the focus to what is most important. Gardener and his thriving future.
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
