I'm going to go out on a limb to say it sounds like your fear, too. Touch her and show her that you love her, or at least want her. ILY is a phrase that you may not need to say (or shouldn't say) right now. Show your love.
Sorry I didn't explain that good enough. I don't say I love you, but I do touch her, I hug her all the time. And not some lame ass hug I HUUG her. Just like I always have. My fear holds me back from saying things to her but it doesn't stop me from touching her.
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One more battle, but you're up for it, right?!
Damn right I am. I will fight and keep on fighting.
She is worth it to me. I haven't been begging her to come back I just let her know that I am here waiting. Maybe this is the problem though. I tried to go dark or dim but that wasn't working at all. I will just have to keep trying different things. I know all those tunnels aren't cheeseless...
She did actually show interest in what I was doing today. Which is something she hasn't done since she left the house.
I came out and asked her last night what she is looking for in life and in general. I asked her if leaving has really made her happy.
She replied with a no, that her life sucks. Mainly because she doesn't see our kids as much. This is where I went into I want you to be happy. Our house is always open to you. I want you to work on yourself.
I really do hope that she will look into IC. Because I know she needs to be working on things she just pushes it down and keeps doing it. She has been her entire life.
I really do hope that my daughter and my son will see that I have fought for them to have a complete family. My daughter has started to break down more and more. She says how much she misses her mom, and how much she wants us to be married. She drew a picture of my W and I in a tux and a wedding dress yesterday.
My W is really short with my daughter and tells her to not ask her to come back and to not cry. To be tough and hold it all in. Grr it really upsets me. I am doing my best I really am.
Aces
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I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
