Forrest, less crazy, definitely. I am in more control of my reactions, something I was doing at work, with friends but wasnt good at with H. All this intro-analysis of wrong doings and mistakes, helped after all...
Gosh the health worries with your parents must be wearing on you. You are doing an amazing job holding it together! I hope that there is reason to relax about that soon.
Yes, the habits and routines. In retrospect it's easy to see the damage that countless repeated negative tiny actions can cause. It takes huge effort to repeatedly choose new ways.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
Me29 S3 H left 4/1/09 I file 8/2/10 Divorce final 5/17/11 1st http://www.tinyurl.com/25lhu52 2nd http://www.tinyurl.com/2c35ueg 3rd http://www.tinyurl.com/322yk89
Glad she is better. The American phrase is 'shingles'. It is the same virus as chicken pox.
Hang in Kalni. Hugs. FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
H went to work and he insisted to drive us at the movies where I met my GF with her kids.
He shocked me by inviting me in the shower with him, before we left... It seems the physical part of our R is getting "warm". I am still a bit detached but I cant complain.
School, work and "normal operations" start tommorow. K
He suggested I meet him for a long weekend at his European part of his journey, end of May. We'll see how that works out.
Wow... invited you into the shower!? Invited you to join him on a European work trip ?? Sounds like you are finally getting to stage 3 (?) - romance! Although he already did stage 4 right, recommitment, he's not going anywhere. Its so cool !!
Sorry about your parents. I guess your mum got a herpes flare up because of stress?? They must be thrilled you and H are back together though? You didnt post that, I just thought, I bet they are glad. Nice that they welcomed him back into the family, bearing no grudges, just as my parents did.
We saw Helen last night.. arrgghhh. She was in the pub all evening, looking over at our table. BF ignored her (poor Helen). I thought of you. Even in my sitch (not as 'serious') I had a real urge to go talk to her, to get some sort of closure on it, I didnt know what I wanted to say but maybe something about all the years I had been with him and how he was meant to be with me and not her, so not her fault. Crazy huh?
I had to make do with staring at her every time she wasnt looking over at us !! She was more attractive in the flesh than I had thought and that did hurt...But its just looks right.
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
