Opt - yeah, that's the way I see it too. I know I've got to be patient - I need to focus on her distance affecting me less.
Kitti - yeah, I've very happy about our communication. I asked W last night how she felt about my opening up, and she said it was amazing how much I have... I feel the same with her. We're doing well here.
We will get there. I know we will. We agreed that every day we make the choice to marry ourselves. We're not going to fall apart or give up; we trust one another.
To W's fears about me packing it in, I told her that this is what we do when we get married - we accept the risk of the things that will happen. We make ourselves vunerable to our spouse facing disease, accidents, etc. and this is part of that.
So, my mantra is patience.
W was frantic and edgy again this morning, I just gave her space. I'm learning. She's getting together tonight with the fiancée of one of my good buddies to watch football, so she's getting out of the house and doing social things.
I'd working on twisting the circuits in my head, turning on and off the right switches, applying the mental disipline to keep myself in the right space. I don't want to depend on her feeling good and being constantly close to me so that I'm secure. I want to be a source of light in our marriage and in my life, and I'm working on that.
