WAH in MLC with PA

[courageous wife]

Reading DG's post about the mortgage money really makes me think that all of our H's came from the same gene pool! Hang in there DG! I like what Mila says about everything coming down on your H...hopefully he will hit the bottom! Hang in there!

[DiamondGirl]

Well I closed the joint accounts. I'm expecting some sort of fireworks when H finds out. He picks up the kids tonight for the weekend. I'm kind of glad I'll be working and won't see him.

I still felt disloyal as I did when I called the cops on him last month. But less so this time...

[DiamondGirl]

Well, either H hasn't figured out the accounts are closed or he's fuming silently...

He texted me again about mediation basically yes or no? And when I didn't answer, he sent another that said I'll take that as a no...

I am soo tired... The drama of the past week is catching up with me and I have to work at my part-time job tomorrow too (I'm at it now as well).

I feel so sad right now... again like when I took a stand with the death threat.. but I also feel a sense of defeat.. like things are not going to change for the better but get worse instead...

I'm not sure if it's PMS (sorry gents) or what but I just feel like bawling...

I've been trying to stay peaceful and calm today but inside my emotions are just ready to overflow.. sadness.. loss.. wanting to sleep and wake up to find things changed for the better... with H by my side and sane..

I know.. I know.. no magic pill.. no miracle cure...

It scares me to read of other MLCers never leaving replay.. I can feel H is close to bottom but who knows... it could be just wishful thinking on my part...

I'm just so tired of all of this.. though I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this point in time, it is really getting to me tonight...

[Jack_Three_Beans]

So...

Do something tonight.

Get OUT of the house.

Walk, see a movie, rent a movie, make a movie.

DO

Something.

: )

Get out; and get out of your funk.

[Mila]

DG, I'm sorry that you are having a bad day

But you know how it is....The rollercoaster doesn't stop. One day we are up and the next we are down. Just take it like that. Tomorrow will be better.

Pamper yourself, do something make-me-feel-good tonight. Splurge... go for a massage, do something that will make you forget all this mess. I personally like shopping therapy or a few (or quite a few) glasses of wine with some friends.

I guess my advice is the same as Jack's...get out of the house!!!

[DiamondGirl]

I would gladly take that advice... Unfortunately, I am stuck in a dead office for another hour at least.. not much to do..

I'm going to see what's playing at the movies tonight... maybe I'll go see something.. or see if anything interesting is going on in my city that isn't too expensive..

... Putting my tired thinking cap on....

[Mila]

I am stuck in a dead office for another hour at least.. not much to do..

You can always talk to your DB friends to kill time

Putting my tired thinking cap on

I know...it's hard to be enthusiastic about GAL when you are tired. Challenging to come up with a GAL activity that doesn't take to much energy or money.

[DiamondGirl]

Checked the local events... not much going on tonight after 9...

I don't really relish going to the bar scene alone... That's a whole other kind of drama sometimes and I've had enough... LOL

Have a book I've been toting around but haven't read yet.. Not really GAL...

Still working on it.. 30 minutes to go before freedom from this job for tonight..

[DiamondGirl]

Thanks Mila & Jack,

You're absolutely right about getting out of this funk. I don't want to ruin what free time I have this weekend by prolonging it...

My RL friends are also going through their own drama at the moment and my energy level isn't such that I'm much support to them other than by my talking to them on the phone or texting them that I'm thinking of them...(things I'm ashamed to say I'd dropped the ball on doing with them over the last few years.. in my own fog I guess..)

Okay... checking the movie theatres now..

[DiamondGirl]

Thumbs down to the movies playing in my area... Nothing that I'd pay full price to see...

I'm thinking I should do a little self care tonight.. get all comfy with warm blankets and some popcorn on the couch and either read that book I've been toting or order a movie on my tv for myself.. Maybe some hot chocolate (that I don't have to make for the kiddos too) and nail polish may be in order (don't worry.. I won't mix them up and drink the wrong liquid...)

Thanks for pointing me in the right direction....