I am so exhausted. Hopefully I can get to sleep early tonight. I really need to get through whatever this is quickly because work is back in a few days. I took a nap today with S and want to go to bed soon since I am already tired. I think the extreme exhaustion is from a few things; S not sleeping so me not sleeping the beginning of the week, my body fighting off the sickness probably as well, me not eating well this week because I just grab bites between taking care of S or doing stuff, me being sad. I should be feeling better soon...
Today is my nephew's first birthday and tomorrow is the party so that is exciting. I love that little guy! S and him are getting to be good friends so that is so fun. It does bring back some, but only few, bad memories because when I wanted to go to the hospital to be with my brother and sister-in-law, I called H to watch S for me. He said he couldn't so I went off on him about why because it was the first week he was gone and he hadn't seen S at all. He was in Chicago with OW...
I really am doing better with it not bothering me. I just felt like there was a sliver of hope this week and opened up ever so slightly which I shouldn't have done. Tomorrow is going to be a great day! S and I were the first ones to see my little nephew so that was special and S has been all about him ever since so it is exciting to celebrate this special occasion. Tonight we went to a local ice cream place to get dinner to celebrate so all is good...just tired.
On the baby note, I am seriously considering getting a puppy to curb my need for a baby. Thoughts?
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