WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

Well, either H hasn't figured out the accounts are closed or he's fuming silently...

He texted me again about mediation basically yes or no? And when I didn't answer, he sent another that said I'll take that as a no...

I am soo tired... The drama of the past week is catching up with me and I have to work at my part-time job tomorrow too (I'm at it now as well).

I feel so sad right now... again like when I took a stand with the death threat.. but I also feel a sense of defeat.. like things are not going to change for the better but get worse instead...

I'm not sure if it's PMS (sorry gents) or what but I just feel like bawling...

I've been trying to stay peaceful and calm today but inside my emotions are just ready to overflow.. sadness.. loss.. wanting to sleep and wake up to find things changed for the better... with H by my side and sane..

I know.. I know.. no magic pill.. no miracle cure...

It scares me to read of other MLCers never leaving replay.. I can feel H is close to bottom but who knows... it could be just wishful thinking on my part...

I'm just so tired of all of this.. though I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this point in time, it is really getting to me tonight...