I also want to apologize for not posting much on other peoples threads. I don't feel like my advice would be very good other than cheerleading. I can't seem to follow some of the great advice that I've been given on here.

I do look forward to everyones thoughts.

It's good to know that I'm not alone.

I'm not ready to throw in the towel so to speak. Until I'm ready to let go and be fine with what she chooses, I cannot fully detach, and without detachment, I can't fully heal myself. I am working on it and continue to get stronger. I will get there.

I have to get there. This is no way to live.

I told W that last weekend and she still can't make up her mind what she wants. If she would leave, at least I would have no choice in what to do. As it is now, as much as I try not to, I still react to her actions. Not as bad as before, not nearly, but always looking for that positive sign. Am I explaning that right?

Still hoping, still trying, still getting stronger.


Me-43
W-36
TS-10
D-7
S-4
M-11
Rings off-8/16/2010

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