Tonight cooking dinner for my new friend...SO excited.
Have had contact w/ W... she's not doing well...drinking daily, using (though she denies). I'm sad for her- she's regressing...I know we're still young (32)...but MY GOD, she got sober when she found our friend dead...
My parents wished someone would put me through what I put them through...it has now happened.
My hands are tied...
I asked W why she's so vague w/ me...
"b/c when you're mad you tell my mom my [censored]..."
she told my family when I was out of line w/ gambling and though I cursed her, I knew it was out of love and served my best interest.
Everything I'm doing now I could have been doing w/ W...eating out more, walking the ave- nothing extravagant- WTF did she have to do this?!
No worries, just a rant, a poor me...lesson learned.
I'm thinking of filing very soon.
W made a comment, I know what I need to do...work on myself...I'm not fit for any R.
I know this is true and I question why I even care still- love for sure, but you can't love someone while they're sick like that- selfish and using, head in the sand, etc.
I do love me and my eyes are opened to good people around me...I'm done missing opportunities. I'm the only one thinking straight- it's abusive to myself to wait or focus on someone who's just not there and literally screwed over me and my family.
