Smiles all around here, again, Allen. You have a gift of nailing it. Not sure how you feel about God, but every night I pray for you and Puppy and all the others here giving of their time and love and wisdom. I am in awe that you can give of yourselves so much and yet still hold jobs AND maintain happy marriages - that YOU BUSTED yourselves.
Going to go take my motorcycle course now, get my license. Another step in becoming the ME I want to be. The free spirit I used to be before I became tied down and a slave to a family that I love to death... but just ate me alive. I BECAME the woman I was BECAUSE H abandoned me emotionally and left me to care for HIS children and not take ANY responsibility. IF he decides to work on the M, I WELCOME this new, take-charge man as it will take a HUGE load off. I haven't played my guitar or violin in YEARS and YEARS, I haven't written poetry for 10+ years, painted a picture (except for one for my stepmother) in 10+ years. Taken classes - I dropped out of school to care for his children with only three classes left to graduate and apply to vet school... I did that FOR HIM and because I love these children with all my heart and soul. I was honor roll in Biology and Chemistry - national honors plus I tutored. I am GOOD at these things and I LOVE them, but I felt so kept and I now feel free.
If this is all ended well - or even if it doesn't, I think I'll paint a picture for MIL/FIL to say thanks. It's the one thing I can give from my heart and soul to them to show them just an ounce of my gratitude.
