WAW and me in 11th hour!!!!

[Ken62]

Glimmerman,

Thanks for the quick and thoughtful reply! To answer some of your questions. Yes, this is the same man from 25 years ago. They moved out to Colorado together and they weren't officially dating but living as roommates in a two bedroom apartment. They possibly dated for a little bit and he has always felt that she was the love of his life. She needed to get out of that apartment with him and we needed another roommate at our townhome so she moved in.

I also agree with Coach's posts and I am certainly on the fence about dating. It just doesn't seem right and like I am forcing it out of lonliness and doing it for all the wrong reasons. I know that my W stated several months ago that she wished that I would start dating but I believe that it was because she wanted to feel less guilty about what was going on.

I do know that a lot of men have disappointed her in her life starting with her father and then all the men who abused her and then all the men she dated both back home and out here before she met me. I was the most stable one but I also didn't fill her "emotional tank" and this was the problem with our M. She has a very big heart and needs a lot of love because of her past experience with men and her mother.

You also may be right about her decison to leave this summer. It did come the same week she found out that there might be someone in my life. It may be that this made her feel like she had permission to move on because I was showing signs of moving on. I really don't know what she is thinking though.

As far as the God question, I believe it has to do with her heart and God. She believes that her heart is not protesting her actions and because of this it is also God speaking through her heart. I'm probably not explaining that very well but that is what I perceive to be her explaination.

Not sure how much contact we'll have coming up. I'm Dark and in NC mode right now. She texted me last night to "Break a leg!" on the opening of my show last night but I didn't respond. Maybe I should say "Thanks! It went great!" or maybe I should say nothing. I'm not sure on that one. Thoughts?

Thanks again!