I'm not saying to be an @$$ or anything, but there comes a point where you say "okay things happened in the past, let's move on". Your W has shown no remorse whatsoever. I don't care what you might have done in the "past". We all did stuff that hurt our spouses. Maybe you felt you did more than most, but DBing is about what works and right now what you're doing isn't working.
Try not to cave in so much and see what happens.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.