I hate sinning, and I know it to be a sin. I have all the excuses needed to make it hard for me to want to quit forever. So do I want to? I know I must, but I wish I didn't have to. (Screwed up, eh? That is what made me willing to see a doc!)
I really think her low self-esteem led her to say 'better this than other problems'. She also was certain I would stop. She told me that she expected I'd D her if she confronted me. That is how little she knew about me...I was waiting for her to help me want to stop - I would've been embarrassed, but I wanted her to catch me & help me stop (I think!)
Wow! This speaks volumes!! She was afraid to confront you, wow.
M38, H37 S3, S7 Together 15 yrs Married 8 yrs Bomb July 2008 Inhouse separation "I hate you" "We are over" (too many times to count) Reconciled Sept 2009 (still worth it)
