It's 6 months now since I moved out. The crazy thing about all of this is that I haven't died (though I felt like it). I'm in a much better place than I was. I'd say our major problems started about 13 months ago. That's over a year. Time has gone by yet it still doesn't seem like that.
H and I have been hanging out since January. We go up and down. I thought we were getting along better, we have been. Doing MC together but I'm not sure how productive it's been.
Last night he told me he doesn't want to "waste his time" I guess meaning our marriage. I validated but a D is not what I want. I'm not there. I usually have no problem with moving on with things in my life but this is not one of them.
I guess the up down thing confuses since just Sunday he was saying he needed to get me helmet for his new motorcycle.
Oh and he did file for the D in January, I signed his immigration papers (for it to become permanent-residency) and a month later he had it petitioned for a dismissal. Court records are still showing that it's "active" but petitioned. I don't understand that. I never hired a L, I didn't file for D and H did give me my wedding ring back (around my bday).
I kind of want to call him today after that wrenching conversation but not sure what to say since he's "wasting his time" comment.
