Throughout the 7 years we have been married she has said things like "Why are you with me", "I'm not a good person", "I don't deserve you".
Also throughout our marriage I feel like I have been battling her own demons that she has gathered from her childhood and teenage years. But I have never held it against her. I have always accepted her for who she is.
My mistake is that I became depressed and selfloathing because I didn't get a job in my field after I graduated. I worked graveyard at my job and didn't have weekends off, so taking her out was really hard. So I know my mistake. I now work days, I have weekends off, and inspite of what is happening in our M I can say that I'm no longer depressed I have my goals in mind. I'm going to go back to school. And I want to take her out as much as I can(180) to show her that I can be what she wants.
I'm GALing as much as I can. and I have made new friends that support me and want me to do what is right.
My trust in God is coming back. I know he has never abandoned me and I am thankful.
Please I know there is a lot of people on her but Sandi2 or anyone else that can help I would appreciate it.
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I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
