Maybe I didn't blow it?

[timehealsall]

I really don't know what to do.

We are separated completely,. so I can't really snoop. She has said there is no-one else, and I don't know if I believe her or not.

Well, I guess since I don't know what to do, I'm gonna go nothing. I'll go back to being dark and pretend I never asked her to go to the zoo.

I gotta say though, The doom and gloom really depresses me. Part of me wants to be positive about this and think that maybe she actually does want to work things out with me... But nobody seems to think that's possible.

How do I bust my divorce if every time something positive happens, like her wanting to see me, I have to take it as a negative?

I'm not trying to be a jerk, and I do hear where you guys are coming from. I'm just really down this morning.

It's not that it's not possible. It's moreso that you can't really believe what she says. You put the whole zoo thing out there, well, just go about your business doing what you're doing and see if she brings it up to you again.

I know how it feels. You get so hopeful when you actually hear something positive out of their mouths, but remember that they are so screwed up and so confused, that they don't know what they really want.

Hang in there.