James....i think the point everyone has been trying to tell you over i don't know how many days is....YOU NEED TO WORK ON YOU AND STOP GETTING SUCKED BACK IN BY HER UNTIL YOU ARE IN ABETTER PLACE PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
i have watched over a mere few days your emotions range from happy to wanting her to die....you need to detach from her..your co-dependance on her is EXACTLY that of an addict (i suggust reading "Beyond co-dependancy" if not already mentioned)..go dark for a few weeks, not just a day, and get your NUTS back.
that is all i have
Gman
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