Faith without works... (my new thread)

[james217]

She asks me what I want to do. I say I want to work out M. That I still love her. She says she doesn’t think so and that I’ll never trust her again. I state time, patience, love, God and counseling can fix anything.

She says she doesn’t think I can change. That’ll be more of the same. She also admits everything she has done WRONG. She is like I’m am so freaking sorry for hurting you. For being with OMs. For the herpes. For not loving you hard enough. For mistreating you. I don’t think I can come home. You will never look at me the same again. I tell her neither one of us will look at each other same. We just have to grown and learn from our mistakes and how to be a happy loving family again.

I tell her I have to forgive. I have to try to trust and we owe it to God ourselves and the kids to do better.

She asks me what I want to do again. I say we need to make more happy memories to erase the bad memories. She says ok so you want to date? I say sure. I’m thinking she’s bluffing and it’s more game playing.



I ask her where she wants to go. She says you plan it. You’re the man. You’re supposed to be the leader. I say fine. I set up a day of fun for us.

First I have to take a drug test for the job for thing in the morning for preemployment. The interview went very well. So now just the background drug screen and the company will look at my resume. The temporary service things I’d be a good fit. So that WENT WELL!!!! Hopefully I have a job soon. Ill just pray about it.

First I suggest MC and she agreed but then later said she’s not ready for that yet.

Well the day of fun set up was us having breakfast together (after I take drug test) and then bowling and then Lunch. I tell her the plans. She says that sounds like fun. I end the call first.

She calls back later and we watch one of our favorite tv shows over the phone together. Then I got to sleep. I had a few texts and calls after I had went to bed. She had never done that recently because she was on phone with OMS. Shockingly I was the one she wanted to talk to but I was sleep. I just later told her I was busy.

So I get up first thing in the morning and ride with my father to the bus stop (our bus and train system is EXCELLENT IN THIS CITY but where I live it does not run in my suburb which is frustrating) I go take drug test.

I respond to her text from last night stating I”ll be done with drug test soon.

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