MLC Saga, contd...

[elfie]

This time around the hurt and the anger have got a good hold on me, since there has been so much lying and pretense involved. I had gotten over the internet affair much easier as I didn't know the person or any details about the A. This time I know the OW and worst of all some gorey details that she has communicated to friends about the A. I feel betrayed by my H and used by a lowlife OW. I feel like a fool for being so trusting...This is the hard part for me...to overcome this anger...OW had been entertaining ideas to leave her H and kids and run away with my H...For me, H has been the center of my life for over 25 years...for her a H is a commodity...

So I am afraid I will need time to process all this anger and I don't know what effect this will have in the long run with H getting out of the tunnel, as it seems that my anger seems to be pushing him back in. It's what I have read in other posts, after the revelation of the A, WH expects LBS to skip over it and accept back WH as A never happened. When I did this in the beginning, H had warmed up to me or so I thought...I Know I am not supposed to mention OW, but I just haven't been able to control myself under the circumstances...I am only human after all...