S4 had Dr. appt today to follow up with broken collarbone. It is healing well. He's running around like his old self.
Still feeling down. I know I'm mind reading. I think the next talk will be she is leaving. The more I think I'm prepared, the more I question that I am.
Maybe S would be a good thing. Maybe she would miss what we had and realize we could fix it together.
Our 4 kids--
I know I'm letting my mind wander. I have to get control of myself. Just venting. I won't let her see me like this.
I will be fine. I am becoming better than I was before. I am a great father and my kids will always know how much I love them.
