I feel HORRIBLE. I had to ask H for his help. It pisses me off that I: 1. Had to ask for help, and 2. How pissed off I am because I am pissed that I had to ask for help!

State competition for kids this weekend - 3.5 hours away from home. Prom on same day. I had a parent tell me that he could bring girls back for prom, but found out today that he isn't even going........so..........had no choice but to ask H if he would do it-----besides D16 had already asked him and he said "I haven't been asked to do anything." And that was because it was MY weekend----my activity (that he has never wanted anything to do with)----and I thought I had it all under control. UGGGhhhhhh.......and tell me HOW am I supposed to not be thinking about him when I can't have ZERO contact? So much going on....so much to do......and more H drama today----and to top it off, had to ask for his HELP! I HATE THIS!!!


Me 45
M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08
D 18, D 14, S 12