Ok... Something happened... And now I really need advice.
I threw cation to the wind, and decided to chat with my wife today online. Just casual... Saying hello, seeing how she was and all that.
Somehow the conversation went into "us".
Keep in mind, up until now, any "us" talks ended with anger, and confusion.
We didn't talk about getting back together, in fact, we both agreed that our relationship and our marriage was over.
But... For the first time, we talked about WHY it was over, and WHY it happened, and it was very calm, and very honest, and it was nice to finally clear the air.
She is still kinda hesitant towards me, which I am expecting... But she did say she thinks about me a lot. She said she still is angry towards me, and she doesn't know why. She said she is lonely. She said she just does not trust me with her heart anymore, and I told her I dont trust her with mine.
We talked about how right now we are both just working on ourselves, and figuring out the things we need to work on as people to become better.
I mentioned to her how this was the most calm, and productive talk we have had in 4 months.
She said "ha, it is!"
Then I told her if we were face to face right now I would kiss her on the cheeck.
She said "You're silly, but I would accept it"
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At that point... I said to myself... "alright self, go for it".
I asked her if she would like to go to the zoo with me when the weather gets warmer.
She said "yeah, sure"
Then we joked about me pushing her in the bear pit.
Then I had to go to a meeting... So I wished her a fun weekend, and told her I would talk to her soon.
