Oh, and I did come up with one more reason not to curl up and die, or not kill myself:
If I do that before I buy the house, X will get the house!!! So no matter how much I want to just put a pillow over my face, or wish for an errant Mack truck to swerve my way, I have to keep going until the closing, at least!
So--3 things to look forward to: 1/2 marathon trial run this Saturday 1/2 marathon for real end of April Closing the house and having it go to my family, or set up a Home for Wayward Orphans should anything happen to me.