Oh, and I did come up with one more reason not to curl up and die, or not kill myself:

If I do that before I buy the house, X will get the house!!! So no matter how much I want to just put a pillow over my face, or wish for an errant Mack truck to swerve my way, I have to keep going until the closing, at least!

So--3 things to look forward to:
1/2 marathon trial run this Saturday
1/2 marathon for real end of April
Closing the house and having it go to my family, or set up a Home for Wayward Orphans should anything happen to me.

So there!

Wish me luck in the run on Saturday.