The countdown continues

[Awoken]

I'm hanging in here. Overall, I feel just like the first week of the bomb: trouble sleeping, eating, in a panic. I'm working hard to get on top of it. I Pulled the book "Learned Optimism" back out and started reading. I'm trying to not view this as a catastrophe, after all nothing has really changed.

Acceptance is hard.

One good thing is that no matter what, I'm working on myself and I'll be a better Awoken once this is all done. It's almost like my life has been on hold for the past 17 years, and I just didn't realize it. It's painful to honestly look at my own faults, and I'm sure that's why so many avoid doing it. A situation like this certainly puts the spotlight right on them. However, I'm in charge of me!
(this little speech is really just for me!)

Talked to my lawyer again today. W's lawyer says they will complete a counter-offer once W gets back in town. W told him that she was NOT involved in an affair. Doesn't make sense for her to lie to her own lawyer. She may think I don't have any actual evidence. I do regret that it's come to this.

Yes, I will keep in mind that this an adversarial process and keep my cards close to my chest. My ultimate goal is to keep things as calm as possible, and do the right thing for my kids. I have to keep my emotions in check. No matter what, I will have some kind of relationship with my W forever.

Thanks everyone.