Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Boy, another annoying and maddening day..

I am supposed to believe that things get better over time. What time that is who knows.

I did get to visit my d9 at school today, and drop her off at stbxw after..

So, in the side yard of 'our' home, she has allowed ss19 to build a fire pit, and now I see all of our old dining room furniture, 'our' yard tools strewn around the firepit, and charcoal everywhere from fires. Nice, $600 plus in indoor furniture left outside to rot...

Spent the next hour on phone with credit card company, as my credit is now destroyed and all my cards have been cut down to unusable.

It's tough to take that everything I worked for gets taken away from me, my daughter for is gone from my life for 2/3 of it, my credit finances that I worked so hard to protect is destroyed, loss of the investments, the home.

What a complete mess, and somehow I am supposed to wish my stbxw happiness in her new life?

So, I am headed to Australia for work with not so much as a credit card if something happens there..

Supposed to look at what I do have, and be grateful, maybe later today when I don't feel like just screaming and wondering how in the h*ll this state and stbxw get to do this to me no consequences other than to me..