Then what? Is it likely she'll see what she lost? Will it be too late from my end by then? There are days/moments I'm so angry with her I want to hate her ... and then I see her and know I still love her. I accidentally called her by her nick-name the other day. Throughout 15 years of our relationship, you could count on 1 hand the times I called her by her actual name; she's gone by her pet name up until the last 6 months when all this started. Then it slipped out. Now I'm rushing back to going dark ... trying to arrange to have the kids dropped off and picked up in a way that I don't even have to see her. Am I crazy? Or going crazy?
