Right now, I don't really know what I want. I don't think I have had time to figure it out. There are pros and cons to both staying married and to making it on my own. Since I found out about the A, my H has been virtually smothering me. I rarely have a moment alone.
I'm 48 years old. We don't have any kids. We have been married for 15 years.
After the last affair, it seemed to me that we had worked things out. I have no idea what caused this affair. Looking back, our life together was good. Sex was good. It seemed to me like we had a happy little life. He can't tell me why he started this affair and he seems genuinely sorry about it. Swears it won't happen again. I just can't seem to believe him. I feel like I have been made a fool.
I'd like to just take some time for myself. However, I feel like if I ask for that, our marriage will be over. I don't see him agreeing to that at all.
