GH, I'm glad to hear from you...and bummed that you're around again. It does suck to still be in this mess, but it's my own choice. As terrifying as it is, I'm jumping off the crazy train.
Yes, terrifying. I just realized that last night as I caught up wtih a Ff that I've not been in touch with in ages. She asked how I'm feeling and I said, "Good, and sad." After I hung up, I asked myself the question again and felt the fear. Intellctually, I know that moving on is the healthiest thing I can do for myself now...but I love H. I still hope he'll surface, realize what a horrible mistake he's made, and work to create a new M with me. But if I hold my breath waiting for that day, I'll pass out.
Anyway, I like this L a lot. He has a ministerial background, which is cool. He sounds a lot like Chuck, actually. He says I can use the current D case but rewrite the papers to reflect the changes I want, then present them to H. There are no financial benefits to exposing H's crimes, so he advises me to use them as leverage if I need to but to let them go otherwise.
I'll deal with all that when my taxes are done (tedious) and when my choir concert is done (the weekend of 4/16). This is another place that I've really changed--I used to try to do it all at once. I am so much more relaxed when I go step by step.
