Divorce has only been final for few weeks. We see each other about 3 days a week, and up to last night I have been able to act together, happy, cordial ect.,ect. But as he quickly made our child "dropoff", and got out the door, I envisioned what he was more than likely hurrying to do, to see a potential GF or a current GF, and I became overwhelmed with sadness and anger. As he does sometimes, he texted me while he was driving away to remind of things I needed to do i.e, work schedules, sons appts ect ect. We tx paged each other a few more times, with me trying hard not to be a smarty pants, trying to avoid an argument with him. There was a couple of hr gap in tx pages. I knew he must be busy with someone. He tx paged me again, when I assume he was on his way home. I think he gives me just enough of himself to keep me hanging, or I am just misleading myself and hoping he wants to keep me hanging.
Nevertheless, this is such a lonely place to be. I am not ready for someone else, not ready to move on yet, and I am grateful for this place to express myself, and read what everyone else is going through and feeling.
I go to the different forums and it really does help keep me hopeful, but I am wondering if anyone thinks that the DB coaches would be helpful to someone already divorced? They were awesome before the divorce, but I had a hard time remaining on tract. They really were encouraging though, and if anyone has a opinion on this I would appreciate it.
