All I can tell you is that I lived in fear for four years. Don't do what I did. I did not want a d and my h played me knowing that. Maybe not on purpose but he did play me. There were so many back and forths and I thought reconcilliation was just around the corner but it did not happen.
You have to live your life for you. I know you don't want a d but don't let your h control the stitch. This is your life and you only get one chance to live it so you take control.
