Thanks, you two. Jeff, you`re some soldier! Still logging on here, still giving spport, still getting on with your life and-by the looks of things-having a nce life. Hope you find someone special soon who deserves to share that with you!
TIF, I`m off to catch up with you nowJust have to say that both your observations about H having to prove himself to me right now, have been spot on. He hasn`t/can`t.
Yes, he is shaping up around the house-attending to the garden f`rinstance when he`d never bothered before but I feel this is just a show because his Mum is coming up next week(Groan!)
At the funeral-in front of everyone-he hugged me but hasn`t hugged me since. In fact,feeling paticularly vulnerable I went into his bed in the middle of the night last week and all he could do in response was ask if I wanted a pilow-no emotion, no asking how I was, no hugs, nothing. I remembered how cold he was on holidays two years ago-I`d lain across him and sobbed but he was like stone-same coldness.I said nothing-just left.
Yup, I`m vulnerable;I could very easily be sucked back into an abusive situation.H is all about the appearance of things, never about the heart.
I am tired and probably a bit depressed so I`m going to GAL my way out of this and keep letting H go.He will need MC-if only to say we have tried everything.
