4luv, what Allen said about you going through withdrawal is so true. I never made it more than 2 days, because I was addicted to talking to him and I couldn't handle wondering all the time what he was doing.
NC is the hardest thing I ever attempted to do, but I believe it works if you can stick with it and it is better for you. I have very little contact with my H, except for kids. And for the last week and a half he has started to try to share with me more about his life. However, I just say stuff like "oh that's nice" or "that will be fun for you". And I don't offer any of my life with him.
It has made me feel so much better. I still think about him all the time and I do still wonder what he is doing. But it is getting easier.
Hang in there, you are strong, and you can do this!!!! Keep up the NC.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10
