Just posting to let everyone know that I'm doing good. I'm still having my down moments, and dream about me and H working it out. However, I'm starting to imagine a future without him, and it's not all dark.

I called him yesterday and asked if he would have time to go over the D paper with me tonight. He seemed very shocked, but agreed. Then I seen him for a few minutes last night and I could feel him looking at me with a wondering what's changed in me look.

This is what I plan on telling him tonight:
"You know this is NOT what I want. And I whole heartly believe that if we worked together we could rebuild our realtionship. However, I know this is what you want and I realized I love you enough to give you this"


Together 16 years
Married 12 years
Me 36
H 34
D9 & S6
Separated 12/3/09
Confirmed A 1/25/10
Exposed A 1/26/10
H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10