The dreaded LIMBO

[4luv]

This is day 6 of NC with husband. This is the longest time we have EVER not spoken to each other. I am wondering what he is up to? I have been GAL but will admit that my mind wonders to him a lot more than when we were actually talking everyday. I wonder if he is thinking about me but I am trying not to think to much about it.

One of the things that gets me is that the last thing husband said to me when I ended our conversation on Friday morning was "drive safe and dont get any tickets." This was during the conversation where we were just talking for about and hour about nothing but just friendly chatting and husband keeping me company while I was driving out of town. IT did seem like we could have potentially started to make steps toward each other (again, not really sure but just sensing that husband was starting to miss me). I just keep going back over the past few days since Friday morning and then the phone call from OW on Friday evening trying to figure out what could have happened. Then the text message from husband on Sunday saying "I am sorry about what happened. I am trying to clean out my closets...meaning skeletons in his closet." Then nothing but some simple emails asking what I was doing and Easter pics of son.

It just feels weird not knowing anything. We are both dark with each other. Are we just waiting for one to make a move to end the marriage? Or is one of us waiting for one to make a move towards the other? My mom feels like husband tried to communicate with me with his text messages and emails and thinks that it was immature of me to not respond just because it wasn't the type of communication that I was looking for. But I have to remind myself that I did call husband on Monday and he did not pick up on none of my calls. That says alot to me and it is what keeps me going with my NC. I reached out and he ignored me and only followed up with emails and no mention of missing my calls.

Just getting out some feelings.