I don't know, I think H doesn't think I "heard" him and he's very hurt inside and he may need to know that I did hear him, I'm taking responsibility for the part of the M I wrecked, and that I'm sorry for it. I kind of think he won't be able to heal from this until I do that.
The A is separate from any pain I inflicted. The A is the symptom, right? No, it's not right that he did it, but it's done and nothing I can do to change that.
I decided to take a large leap of faith, to change myself and leave H up to himself and God. I just hope I'm not too late.
