embracing change

[flowmom]

Thanks for the insights on WAS psychology. It's funny how yesterday I veered into feeling kind of shell-shocked around H. Yes, need to get back to feeling my own power around him.

rr it wouldn't surprise me if the children have met an OW as a "friend". There already was the incident of D3 talking about H's pink-wearing female friend from the martial arts club. About a week after H moved out I asked for a boundary of NC between the children and people we were dating. He said that he'd have to think about it then never followed up.

I am feeling more resigned to the idea of D. It's hard to imagine a different outcome at this point. Although I yearn for my H, I'm tired of the rejection...which is not new, it's something that has dragged me down for years. H is a major grudgeholder and someone who has demonstrated that he can make drastic 180 changes in his life within short periods of time. He also has a lot of support for making the transition to divorced dad, from his fellow firefighters, and he had no support for working things out in our M. I just don't see him choosing to do the work that would be necessary for us to reconcile.