I have been thinking through one of the problems that H has with me. He said to OW that he's been a yes man for years and I'm not happy with that. Every complaint he has about me seems to be that he can't please me. I don't know where that comes from because he has pleased me more than anyone in the entire world.
Do I tell him this or do I keep it in because he's still under the influence of the A? Oh, this is why I wanted Retro so badly, so I could tell him how I feel and have him actually hear it.
He does (did) so many nice things, fixes my car, my bike, does little things like leave cute notes on my desk. I guess I never told him how much that all meant to me. He made the comment that he wanted to "fix" me because he thought I was low esteem (only for the beginning of our R because of my depression at what was going on then) - and he could never make me feel loved. However, the love I felt over the years was so intense that it overwhelmed me.
