CH, I know you are hurting and your world has been turned upside down but, you need to shift your focus away from your W and onto yourself. Get control of your life. Figure out your own budget. Take the lead on separating debt. Get a L. Research what D looks like in your state. Build your own relationships with your friends.
Try not to look at this at torture but as a way for you to grow. I understand its not easy. I've been at this for a long time and I still have moments of panic and pain. But I've grown in ways I never though possible. You will as well.
Hang in there.
_________________________ Me-41 W-39 M-15 yrs T-17 yrs D-12 S-9 S-8 B 5/08 S 1/09