I'm not even sure. I feel conflicted about what to do (file or not), if I could ever forgive him (if at some point I decide I want to try - not even ready to consider that right now), if I could ever really be happy with him again and if deep down eventually I might want him back or if I'm just more intersted in keeping my family together (for DD's benefit).

Confused and conflicted for sure, but that's okay. It's gonna take time to sort this all out.

Me: 34
H: 34
DD: 3
M: 8 yrs
H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you"
PA Bomb: April 5, 2010